Monday, August 25, 2008 -{'Monday, August 25, 2008
after school was like went to visit the doctor. He's like :WHAT? NO X-RAY? THEN I'M SORRY I CAN'T REALLY HELP. So my mum told him to do whatever he can first. Well it was scary. AND I'm super not kidding. I was sitting on a stool while he tried to push the bone back into place. There it went "crack" OMG!! i was really terrified. NOt bluffing. it's true~thanks xijuan. LOTS XD she told me her story. SHHH dun ask i wun tell. It sortta help me understand what i am going through now. And the doctor too gave me an idea.
Maybe i should have given up long ago. But it was just too hard to accomplish. Too hard to find an excuse to say i don't care about you. The feeling is still there~ i don't know if it will last. Only that it is better to give up and try not to hold on to empty hopes and hear myself weep again. It's just so difficult to let go of what i've held on to for so long. A fruitless 4 months wait is just too hard to accept. maybe what Adelia's blog say is true :girls thought that that guy like her. [or something like that] pinning for it seems so far yet so near~