Thursday, June 19, 2008 -{'Thursday, June 19, 2008
life sucks sometimes. I hate seeing the doctor. He never smiles. Every time i visit him he will only tell me the seriousness of my condition. yea the people who knows/understands my condition will get it. There was an abrupt increase each time i visit him.the first time was 38, then 43, finally it got to 57. yes scoliosis is what i am having. Go check up the dictionary if you are unfamiliar with the word. damnit. My mum threatens an operation if it does not improve on the next visit to the doc.
if successful...He said the op will need aprox 5 hours, 1 wk in host, 2 wks or so at home. So most ops take place during hols. Fine i don't mind going for that choice but it is going to hurt for life. metal rods will be inserted to fuse with the spine to straighten it. but it will be forever. AND it will hurt.
but if fails... die lors. i will be paralyzed for life. I am given braces to wear. FYI not the dentist use de. this brace is the support my back and try, hopefully, to push it back into place. the feel of it on me was iritating. Warm, stuffy. At the end i will stink. so i hate wearing. But it was the wrong choice. it got worse. but no matter what, i am determined to wear it now.
i dowana go for op and i might wear it to school. lets see first how it goes.
fuck life.